In my previous post I mentioned that I was envious of friends who are pregnant. Little did I know that a few days later I would also get pregnant. My husband and I are planning to have a second baby but in my mind I was thinking that next year would be a good time. That is why when I learned I was pregnant I had mixed emotions. Let me share the series of events:
June 16-20- My menstrual period
July 8-12 - I was feeling nauseous and lethargic and thought it was just fatigue or my poor eyesight got poorer so I had my eyes checked. Turned out, the grade of my eyesight was just maintained.
Aug 14 - Transvaginal ultrasound where it was truly confirmed that I have a baby growing inside my womb and he/she is in the right place and have a steady heartbeat.
When I learned that I was pregnant, I cried. I hate to admit it but they weren't tears of joy but rather guilt. I felt guilty for my son Kulay because he is only 2 years and 7 months and I am afraid that I can no longer give him my 100% attention. Kulay is my first love and I feel like I am betraying him by having another baby. I talked about it with my husband and he told me that I should keep in my mind that I am not the only parent around and that WE will give both child our love and attention. I got reassured by that and my OB also told me that the age gap is good. The baby will come out in March 22, 2014 and Kulay will be turning Three this December so "Kuya" Kulay will be 3 years and 3 months when the baby comes out.
I am no longer feeling guilty now and feel really excited for the baby. Kuya Kulay is also excited. I hope that it's a girl this time but no matter what gender the baby will have I just hope and pray that it will be a normal and healthy baby and that I will have a safe pregnancy and delivery.